I thought~

Long long time never update alr
this is bcz: common test period and busy with assignments
However, 
a lot of unhappy things happened in the week when I chiong-ing for test
It's a very long story, I not gonna to share here
Anyway, I've moved to Bukit Panjang, my uncle house for one week alr
I love the environment here and it near to my sch
I really feel like want to stay here for a long time
and I start to searching for cheaper rent room ard here
but today my mum told me dun move out
just stay at relative house as in my aunty need me now
but I still feel like want to move out
want to be independent >.<
I really dun wan to lost my freedom and my life
I want it to be the way I want~
but I have only weak power to control my life now :(

However, gt a disadvantage to move to here too :(
I and him being apart and we never meet for one week alr T_T
I enjoy my life over here but how can I satisfy without him?
but many things btw us happened when we not meet for so long
maybe we feel insecure with each other
maybe we miss each other too much
and maybe we too busy
the frequency of contact become lesser and lesser...
I am not worry about this since that I know our heart are stick together one

However, something happened last night
he was angry on me
and the reason is because of a harmless guy
and he lost his control
He gave me a bomb on the spot :((
It's so hurt but he duno
I know that he feel bad about this but trust me kay?
I'm always with euu~
Should have self-confident to yourself and confident to me
U know me well right?

Sometime,

guy are easy get jealous than girl~

They are just so sensitive~

In this week,

we have small argue

big argue

small fight

big fight

and all through phone

The things is going worse when we cannot meet and settle

Somemore I having common test now

Stress + Sad 

This few days only the tears accompany me

I tear bcz first paper not doing well,one A gone ><

I tear bcz he get impatient to me

I tear bcz he yell to me

I tear bcz he not understand me

I tear bcz he treat me like stranger

I tear bcz of one message

I tear bcz of one word

I tears...that's why~

And the tears everytime drop like nobody matter

even I can't control it

After this all, I just realise that 

actually I not strong enough

I still will cry like child 

I still need a hug

I thought I mature alr

I thought I can handle all the hardest situation alr

I thought I will keep my tears well

I thought I can live without him

All are just I thought...

Anyway, I hope that we can cross the obstacles

and make our relationship will stronger than before :)

I know we can do that!

Night world~