Sleepless Night

Quite confusing in this few days
Something happen without my realization
Hmmm...
Luckily I gt two best friends that always concern about me
they remind me a lot of things
and I just realise what I did recently
Something is going on around me
but I totally didn't realise
Why the thing turn up like this?
I thought it will be okay after term break
but the true is always against my wish
it become more worse and yet I dint stop it
Now I should start to face it seriously and think carefully
I dun wan to lose anything in my life now
including friends and bf =x

I really dun wan to have a sad ending at last
what should I do now?
what can I do now?
Really confusing and sad
Haiizzzzz..........

>.<'''

I met him at Bugis after school

and we just want to meet 

and go somewhere to talk only

who know...

we talk and walk around Bugis

then I saw a lot of things

there are so tempting

then I think that I dun have any Black colour short pant

Sooooo.....

I bought a short pant in black color at last

but it's denim type 

and at offer price

just $11~

Hmmm...I think still ok la hor... 

I know I should not buy anything ad

cz I spent too much in few days ago

but only one more pant...

should be okay la hor?

I trying to persuade myself

so that I will not so guilty 

haha~

Anyway,

I think all is his fault la

why want to meet at Bugis wor...

Sigh~

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Today,
I've went for 3 lectures in one day
it's so pack for my brain
I think I can't absorb it in once time
need time to revise again
the more serious one
is RFA - Regulatory Framework of Accounting
walao eh....
Lecturer tried to teach two set of lecture notes in two hours
and every single page of the notes are full of word!!
It's so wordy and so hard to follow
he talk very fast and never explain properly also
how can I know what he talking about
Sigh again~
I think this sem is a tough semester again~

Business Communication ad make me headache
now RFA come to make me worser =,='''

Hope that I can cover and catch up 
--Cost Accounting
--Taxation
--Finance of International Trade

:(
and now I start to worry about next sem internship ad
I feel so insecure and worry~~
Have to pray hard start from now
If not,
I will die in a ugly way~
haizzz....

~Good night people~

Failure

Finally~
Exam is over~!
But I very very sad with my performance
I feel so depress when I saw the exam questions

All the things I studied
it never come out
All the things I didn't study
it come out

The questions I duno how to do
never mind, it's okay
since that I really no idea at all
The question I know how to do
lagi teruk!!
I made careless mistake

ARGHHH~!
How stupid am I
IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT
All marks gone!!
All gone!!

I hate myself a lot after FMGT and IFA paper
I feel myself very stupid
why I duno how to do the simple question??
why I so slow in study??
Why everyone do well
just I cannot understand the qns??
Why Why Why~!!!!

I spent a lot of time to study and practise
I even gave up sleeping time to study,
burn midnight oil,
never sleep in whole night,
but it's not worth
what I get in return is just like a SHIT!
I duno why I put so much effort in
why I study so hard
It's just wasting my time and energy :(((((

I very frustrate and emo
I duno who should I blame
Whose wrong?
My fault?
Lecturer fault?

What I can do now is blame myself again and again T^T
I still cannot overcome the depression
and feel super emo
although just now I went to celebrate and shopping with friends
but when I on the way home
I feel so lonely and emo
I feel so sad
I feel wanna to hide at somewhere and cry
I feel like want to hug myself
I feel like my colorful world become grey
I feel so frustrate

I swear!
I swear!
Next time I wont put so much effort in exam ad
it hurt me so much
I hate the stupid me!
I know all of you cannot understand my feelings
No one know~

What can I do now is
keep on blaming myself
again and again...........


T__________T

Emo Girl

I duno why I'm so emo tonight
I think the feeling is accumulated from last week until now
I'm so sad without any reason
and I feel so emo when u start study and ignore me
I duno why all my feelings is mixed up
until I can't differentiate what is my feeling now
>.<
Maybe is too stress?
Maybe is too miss u?

My feelings is just like roller coaster~
Up and Down
Up and Down
Up and Down
......

I just hope that I can just simply delete all the unfavorable feelings now!
I duno why I so emotional recently T^T

I NEED TIME!!!

Today......
is not a productive day
wuwuwuwu~ T__T

I just studied 3 chapters only!
Spent whole day to revise 3 chapters only!
WTH! ARGHH!!

Seriously,
I need more time to study!
I hope one day can have 48 hours for me to study
I know is impossible
so what I can do now
is just blame myself

I also duno why I so slow!
I so stupid!
I so useless!
Arghhhh~!
Hate myself so much!
Feel so stress and frustrated with myself today
Sigh~~~

I hope I can like a G6
but in fact I just like a tortoise...
Speechless~

SUCH A STUPID GIRL >.<

没有你的--第五天

今天，是没有你的第五天
这五天的我，是寂寞的~

今天放学后

我们一班人就到Ourspace温习功课

虽然说是读书

但是大家都在放松

因为刚刚考过Accpac

后来大家坐在一起谈天嬉闹

好吵哦！

你一言我一句的

到现在我还能感觉到那些声音在耳边嗡嗡响

哈哈~

可是不知怎么的

笑声越大声

我的失落感越重

周围越热闹

对你的思念越深

不懂为什么

身边的吵吵闹闹

只会让我倍感落寞~

而且很害怕这些声音会消失

或许是不想让自己和自己独处吧

这几天的情绪反反复复的

很多愁善感

可以一下子很开心

但下一秒很伤感

再加上最近在考试

压力一旦浮上来

就没办法让情绪稳定

人在寂寞的时候

是不是就会害怕一个人的时候

人在寂寞的时候

是不是就会怕身边的笑声渐渐远去

人在寂寞的时候

是不是就会怕脑海里出现那个让你思念的人

人在寂寞的时候

或许是最脆弱的吧？

恩。。。不懂~

I'm listening to the silence~

当热闹渐渐远去

能感受到的，只是

自己的呼吸。自己的心跳。

原来，

一个人的时候

世界是如此的寂静~