Sleepless Night

Quite confusing in this few days
Something happen without my realization
Hmmm...
Luckily I gt two best friends that always concern about me
they remind me a lot of things
and I just realise what I did recently
Something is going on around me
but I totally didn't realise
Why the thing turn up like this?
I thought it will be okay after term break
but the true is always against my wish
it become more worse and yet I dint stop it
Now I should start to face it seriously and think carefully
I dun wan to lose anything in my life now
including friends and bf =x

I really dun wan to have a sad ending at last
what should I do now?
what can I do now?
Really confusing and sad
Haiizzzzz..........