Photo-shot Session

Today I have photo shot session in my school

I just put on BB cream and foundation before I went to sch

I not dare to draw eye liner and eye shadow since that I havent practice

I were fb-ing when I waiting for my friends in sch

and I saw many posts on my wall

I were happy to know that u care me so much

and so kan cheong about me

At that moment, I feel sweet and warm

Before taking photo

gt two professional ladies help me to make up and tie hair first~

When I approached to the make up lady

she said "oh u have a good complexion, no need to put on so much make up."

After that she just anyhow put the make up on my face

I think she done within 5min =,=

My eyes look like no spirit at all

she still said nice 

really want to punch her la >.<

However, the hair styling lady not bad

she said my face suit all type of hair styles

she asked me want to put down the hair or tie up or curl or straighten

I have no idea =,=

then I said I let her decided

She keep on touch and comb my hair and took a long time to consider =,=

After a few mins, she said she want to tie it up

but when she tied up

she asked me want to curl or not

she feel like want to curl my hair

then I ok with it lor

I also quite interested to see how I look like with curl hair

But...but...

I regret at last T,T

I look like 25 year old girl with curl hair 

and too mature alr

curl hair not suit me at all >.<

After we took the professional photos

we start spamming Jin pei camera alr

we took a lot of photos crazily :D

After sch I accompany Jespreet went to Clementi mall to buy some make up materials

then heading to home after that :)

Actually I not really want to go home

but I have no where to go

no friends to find

Suddenly feel that I'm so lonely here

I hope I can go back SP :(

I really hate to be alone in sg

it's very bored and sien

Actually many places are in my list

but I just dun wan to go with my oneself only~

On the way home,

he called me~

Without the reason, throw his temper on me again

I being scolded like idiot and I duno what's happened

I fed up too~

Ytr we just said we won't quarrel again, but we argue again today >.<

It is very ridiculous lo, I even duno what is the reason

Reached home, skype-ing

show him my new look 

but end up with anger

he keep on shooting me and hurt me

I duno what's going on~

I feel hurt and sad

Luckily after bathe, 

he start to explain alr

I crying in the phone

and I sure that he can feel it

Hope that he know how deep he hurt me again

Finally, I know the reason

it's just bcz he misunderstanding my words and think too much

but I dun think I were wrong~

Today mood is like roller coaster,

very high at the beginning

very low at the end

Somemore, is the same person make it high and down~ =,='''

Talk so much for what, time to sleep! 

Night :)

Look like aunty >.< Too mature alr~

I thought~

Long long time never update alr
this is bcz: common test period and busy with assignments
However, 
a lot of unhappy things happened in the week when I chiong-ing for test
It's a very long story, I not gonna to share here
Anyway, I've moved to Bukit Panjang, my uncle house for one week alr
I love the environment here and it near to my sch
I really feel like want to stay here for a long time
and I start to searching for cheaper rent room ard here
but today my mum told me dun move out
just stay at relative house as in my aunty need me now
but I still feel like want to move out
want to be independent >.<
I really dun wan to lost my freedom and my life
I want it to be the way I want~
but I have only weak power to control my life now :(

However, gt a disadvantage to move to here too :(
I and him being apart and we never meet for one week alr T_T
I enjoy my life over here but how can I satisfy without him?
but many things btw us happened when we not meet for so long
maybe we feel insecure with each other
maybe we miss each other too much
and maybe we too busy
the frequency of contact become lesser and lesser...
I am not worry about this since that I know our heart are stick together one

However, something happened last night
he was angry on me
and the reason is because of a harmless guy
and he lost his control
He gave me a bomb on the spot :((
It's so hurt but he duno
I know that he feel bad about this but trust me kay?
I'm always with euu~
Should have self-confident to yourself and confident to me
U know me well right?

Sometime,

guy are easy get jealous than girl~

They are just so sensitive~

In this week,

we have small argue

big argue

small fight

big fight

and all through phone

The things is going worse when we cannot meet and settle

Somemore I having common test now

Stress + Sad 

This few days only the tears accompany me

I tear bcz first paper not doing well,one A gone ><

I tear bcz he get impatient to me

I tear bcz he yell to me

I tear bcz he not understand me

I tear bcz he treat me like stranger

I tear bcz of one message

I tear bcz of one word

I tears...that's why~

And the tears everytime drop like nobody matter

even I can't control it

After this all, I just realise that 

actually I not strong enough

I still will cry like child 

I still need a hug

I thought I mature alr

I thought I can handle all the hardest situation alr

I thought I will keep my tears well

I thought I can live without him

All are just I thought...

Anyway, I hope that we can cross the obstacles

and make our relationship will stronger than before :)

I know we can do that!

Night world~