♥ Home sweet Home ♥

Hey friends,
I will go back hometown-SP by tonight
Happy Happy :DD
Finally can go back relax and enjoy ad!
Can't wait to see my family and friends :)
I will go back for 2 weeks
then come back sg start to work :)
So happy!
This sem have 7 weeks sem break
I have enough time to do whatever I want to do
hahaha~

However,
I will less online in this two weeks
because my house cannot online, no network connection
but never mind la, dun care
can go back stay with family feel very happy ad

SP, HERE I COME~! 

(◕^^◕)

Bye bye Singapore ^.^

I.M.Y

This few days I quite stress and depress, but you're not beside me and accompany me all the way. 

I need you so much recently, 

I am so scare so stress so sad

and need to have someone to talk to.

I miss u badly in this silent night :')

Can you hear me?

Can you hear what's my heart wanna to tell you now?

Failure

Finally~
Exam is over~!
But I very very sad with my performance
I feel so depress when I saw the exam questions

All the things I studied
it never come out
All the things I didn't study
it come out

The questions I duno how to do
never mind, it's okay
since that I really no idea at all
The question I know how to do
lagi teruk!!
I made careless mistake

ARGHHH~!
How stupid am I
IDIOT IDIOT IDIOT
All marks gone!!
All gone!!

I hate myself a lot after FMGT and IFA paper
I feel myself very stupid
why I duno how to do the simple question??
why I so slow in study??
Why everyone do well
just I cannot understand the qns??
Why Why Why~!!!!

I spent a lot of time to study and practise
I even gave up sleeping time to study,
burn midnight oil,
never sleep in whole night,
but it's not worth
what I get in return is just like a SHIT!
I duno why I put so much effort in
why I study so hard
It's just wasting my time and energy :(((((

I very frustrate and emo
I duno who should I blame
Whose wrong?
My fault?
Lecturer fault?

What I can do now is blame myself again and again T^T
I still cannot overcome the depression
and feel super emo
although just now I went to celebrate and shopping with friends
but when I on the way home
I feel so lonely and emo
I feel so sad
I feel wanna to hide at somewhere and cry
I feel like want to hug myself
I feel like my colorful world become grey
I feel so frustrate

I swear!
I swear!
Next time I wont put so much effort in exam ad
it hurt me so much
I hate the stupid me!
I know all of you cannot understand my feelings
No one know~

What can I do now is
keep on blaming myself
again and again...........


T__________T

We're apart ~

There's only so many songs that i can sing to pass the time
and I'm running out of things to do to get you off my mind
all I have is this picture in a frame
that I hold close to see your face everyday

With you is where i'd rather be
but were stuck where we are
it's so hard, your so far
this long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me
but were stuck where we are
it's so hard, your so far
this long distance is killing me

it's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far
this long distance is killing me
it's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far
this long distance is killing me

Now the minutes feel like hours
and the hours feel like days
while I'm away
you know right now I cant be home
but I'm coming home soon
coming home soon
all I have is this picture in a frame 
that I hold close to see your face everyday

With you is where i'd rather be
but were stuck where we are
it's so hard, your so farthis long distance is killing meI wish that you are here with me 
but were stuck where we are 
it's so hard, your so far

Can you hear me crying?
Can you hear me crying?
Can you hear me crying? 

With you is where i'd rather be
but were stuck where we are
it's so hard, your so far
this long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me
but were stuck where we are
it's so hard, your so far
this long distance is killing me

it's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far
this long distance is killing me
it's so hard, it's so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far
this long distance is killing me




ஜEvery single lyric of this song are describing my mood and thinking nowஜ

♥FULL OF EUU ♥

220811 ♥

Potato Dosai :)

~ Masala Coffee and Dosai ~

Mutton Murtabak :)

I like his expression, cute ♥

He took this by his Iphone ♥

Let me taste first...(Indian coffee)

OMG～! I look so fierce >.<

Ok, satisfy with it :) Nice one ^^

We hangout for dinner on the day before he go back Msia, 22/08/11, after I went for interview at The Centre Point.
It's first time we went to indian restaurant together and took our dinner, quite special...:)
=========================================

Finally, today, he went back ad~ :(
This few days we never go for dating or meet each other, cz we busy chiong for exam~
and he end his exam first, so he went back by today
AND!!
Very unluckily, I cannot accompany him to go to airport today
because I unwell and stomachache seriously >.<
So sad ~
Dar, 我真的好舍不得哦~ 

好久不见

Being alone in this few daysssss T_T

算一算
我们已经七天没见面了
难怪这几天的心情那么的不稳定
难怪那么容易 emo

七天啊！
是七天啊！
不是七个小时也不是七秒啊！
从15号开始
到现在
而且明天后天也没机会
我们都忙着应付考试
而且在我考试没结束前
你就回家了
好难过的事实哦
好想你～

唉～
我又能说些什么呢？
跟你诉苦
你又不懂
你真的是不太懂女人心咯

唉～
除了叹气
我不知道还能怎么样～

Emo Girl

I duno why I'm so emo tonight
I think the feeling is accumulated from last week until now
I'm so sad without any reason
and I feel so emo when u start study and ignore me
I duno why all my feelings is mixed up
until I can't differentiate what is my feeling now
>.<
Maybe is too stress?
Maybe is too miss u?

My feelings is just like roller coaster~
Up and Down
Up and Down
Up and Down
......

I just hope that I can just simply delete all the unfavorable feelings now!
I duno why I so emotional recently T^T

Zipped my mouth =X

THIS IS SO TRUE!

What should I say?

Recently we are busy to study for exam

and we have no time to talk and meet

miss euu so much~

but duno how to express my feeling to euu

So sad and emo now T^T

When u studying, I sleeping

When I studying, U sleeping

When u exam, I at home

When I exam, u at home

Our exam and holidays timing are always different

but this time, luckily 

my sem break period is almost the same with urs

and we will go back hometown in same period

but u told me u want to hangout with ur buddies

no time for me

U duno how to appreciate this good chance

u said  u give me all ur time at Singapore ad

should FULLY accompany friends when go back

WTH

Gt this concept one mie?

No logic at all

Stupid thought~!

Do u know?

I'm so happy when I know we will go back at the same time

I imagine that we can dating at here and there

Do u know?

the rejection from u is hurting me

u spoil my expectation and say NO to me

Do u know?

I'm so disappointed when I know ur plan 

So sad~~~~~

My feeling just like playing the 

roller coaster

falling from the sky down to the hell!

U just want to spend every single second with ur friends

Ok then, I bo bian!

Just go la!

I know I have no right to say anything 

or arrange anything when we are at SP

No more expectation to u~
I speechless and speechless
Better keep quiet~ :(

Driving crazy by...

HELP! HELP! HELP!

This Friday is coming

super duper scary~~~~

Why?

I ask me why ah?

Bcause hor...

final exam officially start on this Friday ad

ARghhh~!!!

So Stress~

So Nervous~

So Tension~

OMG~!

I still not well-prepared for the first paper

but then well prepared for the second paper ad

very weird right?

I also duno why~

SIgh >.<

Not to talk so much

very late ad

tomorrow still need to wake up at 8am

to go sch library and study

Hope tmr is a

"PRODUCTIVE DAY"

Night world ^.^

IMYSM&ILY T^T

My mind just full of...

Lately, you are too busy to preparing your exam, I know.....I not dare to disturb and to talk so much when u called me~

This is the schedule of my mind recently :) I were shock when I realised it's full of euu ♥

Lastly, I compress all the words I want to say in this three words :)

It never goes away~

Dun ask me to remove all my complicated thought over my life
I also not so like to think this way 
and having this thinking

Dun ask me to change back my personality and thoughts
like how I am in primary sch
It's impossible
Since I'm grown up and affected by the environment

U say this thought is not good
but u never tell me why it is bad
U say u hard to understand
but u never to figure it out

I was hurt by someone previously
that why it become my pain 
the feeling cannot just simply go away
although I tried many timessss
so what can I do with it?

I will be mad to whoever rub or step on it again
even though they are accidentally touched it
It become my principle in my life
It become the thing I most care
and scare to get hurt by it again

So...
dun ever ask me to remove it
it already fixed in my mind
it is a scar on heart
it become a part in my life
I think u can understand it
I just dun wan to see this problem raise between us
okay?

And now, I just realize that
♥I turned up loving u a lot more than I originally planed ♥

I NEED TIME!!!

Today......
is not a productive day
wuwuwuwu~ T__T

I just studied 3 chapters only!
Spent whole day to revise 3 chapters only!
WTH! ARGHH!!

Seriously,
I need more time to study!
I hope one day can have 48 hours for me to study
I know is impossible
so what I can do now
is just blame myself

I also duno why I so slow!
I so stupid!
I so useless!
Arghhhh~!
Hate myself so much!
Feel so stress and frustrated with myself today
Sigh~~~

I hope I can like a G6
but in fact I just like a tortoise...
Speechless~

SUCH A STUPID GIRL >.<

Chiong ah!

Finally!!!
Final exam is around the corner!!!
Exam is start from 19th Aug till 26th Aug
I start revise from last week ad
but maybe is too early ad
that why I not so aggressive and focus
Always slacking and wasted time on entertainment
LOLZ!

However,
today I start feel stress and kan choing ad
duno why
maybe exam is really come nearer to me ad
haha
But I still no mood to study although I start to stress
=,=|||
Like today
plan to chiong for Financial Management
but end up with just study for 6 chapters only
(total gt 12 chapters)
Soooo.....
I speechless
is my fault
but I duno why time pass so fast
and I even duno what I wasted my time on

Beside revision,
I also doing something recently
that is searching for temporary job
Actually after exam I'll have 7 weeks of sem break
Very long, right?
That why I want to work
at least can earn some pocket money in this long long break
but very hard and difficult to find job at sg lo
as in I'm foreigner LOL
I search from internet, newspaper and also through friends
but mostly just asked me to go for interview and reject me T^T
Now I still waiting for an admin clerk confirmation
hope I can get it
Be optimistic :)

After exam I will go back my hometown ad
Wohooo :D
I will go back for around 2 weeks
but not really 14 days la
I thk only 10 or 11 days :)
Anyway I will fully enjoy and relax myself at SP ^^

So I will be very busy in this month
and will be less update in this month
need to chiong chiong chiong!!!

Lucky and all the best for all my poly friends and also for me ^.^
JIA YOU!

珍惜现在

最近有个朋友的感情亮起了红灯
当她向我诉苦时
让我想起了好多以往的事情
以前的我也经历过她现在的处境
但是现在回想起来
觉得以前的自己真的是好笨
不过也算是美好的回忆啦 :')


其实生命就是这样
人的一生中会认识很多很多不同类型的人
有人走进
有人走出
有些人很快就离去
有些人会陪你很久
但还有一些人
一旦走进你的生命就不会离去了
这些人有的是朋友还有情人
但是家人就不一样了
家人是他们让你走进他们的生命
并不是你选择走进他们的生命
而且他们永远不会离你而去

当你和情人吵架时
你会害怕
害怕就这样把他骂走
害怕他受不了你的脾气
但是
当你和家人吵架
你永远不会害怕他们会离你而去
因为无论你多任性
无理取闹或乱发脾气
他们永远都不会
以你的脾气不好的理由
而抛下你
所以啊
家人永远是最好的！
他们最值得依赖信赖
他们永远都不会觉得你很烦 :)

以前的我
曾经伤害过人
也曾被人伤害
很对不起那些被我伤害过的人
对不起！


但是伤害我的人
过去的事也就算了
也请你们以后别在伤害他人了
那种滋味真的不好受

所以
我很珍惜现在我所拥有的一切
家人啊
朋友啊
还有你啊 ^.*
所有的人。事。物。
我都会好好珍惜的！


对于那个你
我更不会轻易放手
因为我不想让自己后悔一辈子~

~因为曾经经历过伤害，

所以现在更懂得珍惜身边的一切~

心血来潮

突然心血来潮

想要换换layout

但是新的layout不能adjust宽度和长度咯

所以会有点窄

而且以后不能用比较亮的颜色写字了

不过没关系啦

看得到看的懂就可以了

呵呵 ^^

Hmmm...你们觉得怎样啊？

没有你的--第五天

今天，是没有你的第五天
这五天的我，是寂寞的~

今天放学后

我们一班人就到Ourspace温习功课

虽然说是读书

但是大家都在放松

因为刚刚考过Accpac

后来大家坐在一起谈天嬉闹

好吵哦！

你一言我一句的

到现在我还能感觉到那些声音在耳边嗡嗡响

哈哈~

可是不知怎么的

笑声越大声

我的失落感越重

周围越热闹

对你的思念越深

不懂为什么

身边的吵吵闹闹

只会让我倍感落寞~

而且很害怕这些声音会消失

或许是不想让自己和自己独处吧

这几天的情绪反反复复的

很多愁善感

可以一下子很开心

但下一秒很伤感

再加上最近在考试

压力一旦浮上来

就没办法让情绪稳定

人在寂寞的时候

是不是就会害怕一个人的时候

人在寂寞的时候

是不是就会怕身边的笑声渐渐远去

人在寂寞的时候

是不是就会怕脑海里出现那个让你思念的人

人在寂寞的时候

或许是最脆弱的吧？

恩。。。不懂~

I'm listening to the silence~

当热闹渐渐远去

能感受到的，只是

自己的呼吸。自己的心跳。

原来，

一个人的时候

世界是如此的寂静~

没有你的--第二天

没错，今天已经是第二天了

昨天下午你搭飞机走了

飞回了属于你的世界

和我离了一个国界

虽然他人都说大马和新加坡很靠近而已

但为什么现在的我觉得离你好远好远呢？

在飞机场的那一天

我沉默的可怕

出奇的安静

一句话也不多说

不吵也不闹

对不起

不是对你的离去没感觉

只是离别太沉重了

我。。。

脑袋一片空白

对不起

让你困惑了

我不是在生气也不是在闹别扭

只是真的很舍不得你

虽然你说你只回去七天

但是这七天对我来说

是个折磨，很难受~

其实你知道吗？

你一回到那里

就会完完全全的把我忘记

这是我最害怕的~

其实分开并没那么难受

被忽略才是最让人害怕的

我，不喜欢被人遗忘的感觉

尤其那个人是你

不要不承认好吗？

我已经试过好多次了

我懂你不是有心的

但那种滋味就是不好受

不然换你来试试看啊~

真的会让人崩溃的！

就像昨天~你懂的吧？

那里是你的世界

你的朋友

你的圈子

你的家人

你一回去就拼命的放纵自己

甚至忘了我的存在

这并没有什么不好

但请记得还有一个我

好吗？

这只是我一个小小的要求

我， 只是害怕~

好！

接下来的几天

我会加油的！

我的心情，灰灰的~