Photo-shot Session

Today I have photo shot session in my school

I just put on BB cream and foundation before I went to sch

I not dare to draw eye liner and eye shadow since that I havent practice

I were fb-ing when I waiting for my friends in sch

and I saw many posts on my wall

I were happy to know that u care me so much

and so kan cheong about me

At that moment, I feel sweet and warm

Before taking photo

gt two professional ladies help me to make up and tie hair first~

When I approached to the make up lady

she said "oh u have a good complexion, no need to put on so much make up."

After that she just anyhow put the make up on my face

I think she done within 5min =,=

My eyes look like no spirit at all

she still said nice 

really want to punch her la >.<

However, the hair styling lady not bad

she said my face suit all type of hair styles

she asked me want to put down the hair or tie up or curl or straighten

I have no idea =,=

then I said I let her decided

She keep on touch and comb my hair and took a long time to consider =,=

After a few mins, she said she want to tie it up

but when she tied up

she asked me want to curl or not

she feel like want to curl my hair

then I ok with it lor

I also quite interested to see how I look like with curl hair

But...but...

I regret at last T,T

I look like 25 year old girl with curl hair 

and too mature alr

curl hair not suit me at all >.<

After we took the professional photos

we start spamming Jin pei camera alr

we took a lot of photos crazily :D

After sch I accompany Jespreet went to Clementi mall to buy some make up materials

then heading to home after that :)

Actually I not really want to go home

but I have no where to go

no friends to find

Suddenly feel that I'm so lonely here

I hope I can go back SP :(

I really hate to be alone in sg

it's very bored and sien

Actually many places are in my list

but I just dun wan to go with my oneself only~

On the way home,

he called me~

Without the reason, throw his temper on me again

I being scolded like idiot and I duno what's happened

I fed up too~

Ytr we just said we won't quarrel again, but we argue again today >.<

It is very ridiculous lo, I even duno what is the reason

Reached home, skype-ing

show him my new look 

but end up with anger

he keep on shooting me and hurt me

I duno what's going on~

I feel hurt and sad

Luckily after bathe, 

he start to explain alr

I crying in the phone

and I sure that he can feel it

Hope that he know how deep he hurt me again

Finally, I know the reason

it's just bcz he misunderstanding my words and think too much

but I dun think I were wrong~

Today mood is like roller coaster,

very high at the beginning

very low at the end

Somemore, is the same person make it high and down~ =,='''

Talk so much for what, time to sleep! 

Night :)

Look like aunty >.< Too mature alr~

I thought~

Long long time never update alr
this is bcz: common test period and busy with assignments
However, 
a lot of unhappy things happened in the week when I chiong-ing for test
It's a very long story, I not gonna to share here
Anyway, I've moved to Bukit Panjang, my uncle house for one week alr
I love the environment here and it near to my sch
I really feel like want to stay here for a long time
and I start to searching for cheaper rent room ard here
but today my mum told me dun move out
just stay at relative house as in my aunty need me now
but I still feel like want to move out
want to be independent >.<
I really dun wan to lost my freedom and my life
I want it to be the way I want~
but I have only weak power to control my life now :(

However, gt a disadvantage to move to here too :(
I and him being apart and we never meet for one week alr T_T
I enjoy my life over here but how can I satisfy without him?
but many things btw us happened when we not meet for so long
maybe we feel insecure with each other
maybe we miss each other too much
and maybe we too busy
the frequency of contact become lesser and lesser...
I am not worry about this since that I know our heart are stick together one

However, something happened last night
he was angry on me
and the reason is because of a harmless guy
and he lost his control
He gave me a bomb on the spot :((
It's so hurt but he duno
I know that he feel bad about this but trust me kay?
I'm always with euu~
Should have self-confident to yourself and confident to me
U know me well right?

Sometime,

guy are easy get jealous than girl~

They are just so sensitive~

In this week,

we have small argue

big argue

small fight

big fight

and all through phone

The things is going worse when we cannot meet and settle

Somemore I having common test now

Stress + Sad 

This few days only the tears accompany me

I tear bcz first paper not doing well,one A gone ><

I tear bcz he get impatient to me

I tear bcz he yell to me

I tear bcz he not understand me

I tear bcz he treat me like stranger

I tear bcz of one message

I tear bcz of one word

I tears...that's why~

And the tears everytime drop like nobody matter

even I can't control it

After this all, I just realise that 

actually I not strong enough

I still will cry like child 

I still need a hug

I thought I mature alr

I thought I can handle all the hardest situation alr

I thought I will keep my tears well

I thought I can live without him

All are just I thought...

Anyway, I hope that we can cross the obstacles

and make our relationship will stronger than before :)

I know we can do that!

Night world~

All happened in this 3 weeks~

Very very very long time never update ad
I think almost 3 weeks ad

In this 3 weeks,
a lot of thing happened
mostly are unhappy one :(

The most terrible one was happened on last week~
Last week Wednesday,
he suddenly called me
and told me he will leave SG on 16th Dec
and he will never come back ad
He told me with a serious voice~
I were discussing assignments with my friends in school when I received his call
I shocked and cannot accept it at that moment~
I know that this day is coming soon
but I never notice that actually next month is already December
I have no mental prepare at all :''(
Since that day,
I were no mood to do anything
including my school works
I live with sad in this few days
beside the feeling of sad, still is the feeling of sad T__T

However,
yesterday he said he maybe will continue his study at SG one more year
then only go to Australia
This is the decision of his parents
I duno why
but I know that he very disappointed and sad
Initially when I know this news
I thought I will happy
who know,
I not happy at all
cause he is so sad and still try the best to persuade his parents
but he failed to do that
He told me how deep he's hurt
how sad he is
how disappointed he is
He planned to do a lot of things there
but his hope is drop at last
I were so pain when I see him like this
I rather that he go to Australia happily
I also dun wan he stay here with a sad face

Actually,
I contradicted myself~
What can I do now is to console him
and tidy up my mood to chiong for my study
common test is coming soon,
sigh~~~

Oppss...
forgot to say
I went to watched "那些年我们一起追的女孩“ already
I went to watch with him on the first day it release in cinema - 10th of November
it's a super nice movie
It scene is very close to the reality surrounding us
and the story is so true and really very close to our reality
It not like the common movie that always have a fairy tale and happy ending
It really touch my heart and I dropped tears in movie theater
I have a lot of feelings and I become emo after I watched this...
I recalled many things that happened in Secondary school
and such sad ending actually is the ending of most of the affection that started in Secondary sch~
This movie really Worth to watch :)
Love it so much ^_^